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anxiety mental health

On Having Anxiety, Part 2//A Reflection

Part 1// I’m 18, a university student and part time admin assistant. I was sitting in my very first psychologist’s office, staring blankly at a wall, trying to ignore the sense of impending doom in my chest. We’d been discussing life, and I’d decided that it wasn’t a thing I wanted to do anymore. “I […]

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life

Brii is back (and better than ever)

Hallo. I’m back. I haven’t written here in over a year. Nearly a year and a half. A long time. Back in January 2016, I wrote about how 2015 had been a year. Sometimes I think I jinx myself by categorising events as the most challenging ever™ because 2016 was even more of ~a year~ than […]

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anxiety mental health

On Having Anxiety

I have anxiety. More specifically, I have Panic Disorder, meaning I experience frequent panic attacks with no identifiable trigger. I also have Generalised Anxiety Disorder in the sense that I am frequently anxious about any number of things without any real understanding as to why. Although I didn’t receive a diagnosis until after I started having Panic […]

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personal

The Difficulty of Creativity

I like to think of myself as a vaguely creative person. I’m reluctant to give myself titles that I don’t believe I have earned, but I am, by definition, an author, a director, and content creator in the sense that these are things that I do. I’ve been creating things, like every other human being, […]

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life personal

it has been a year.

Reminiscing on the last year, completely with whimsy photographs and inspiring paragraphs about how we’ve all changed and grown. Maybe there’s something beautiful in looking back and picking out all the good bits. It’s probably healthy, actually, but I’ve never been one to take the healthy route, so I’m not going to do it like that. Here is a selection of failures. Hopefully you’ll feel better about yourself on reading.

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life

the problem with words

I am a bundle of words. They’re everywhere around me. Half finished sentences are scribbled on sticky notes around my computer at work, hours doing paper work blur into immensely detailed writings on life, the universe, and everything, and I have over one hundred pages of notes on life on my person at all times. […]

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personal

on doing something

(originally published June 11 2015) I want to get all the words out of my head, because there are an awful lot of them. They’re clawing at the back of my mind, and I want to blame them for the headaches that are having oh-so-much-fun frolicking about. I’m extremely lost as a person right now. […]

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education

university.

(originally published Feb 9 2015) Okay, so here’s the story of my education recently. (slash an attempt to make sense of it all!) point one During year 12 I did subjects that would get me into university. Obviously around the world the secondary systems are very different, so I’m just going to leave it at […]

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education personal

year ago brii

So, here we are, on the first day of school, but I’m not going. I didn’t get into university because doors closed, I still haven’t moved out, but I made it. Hey, year ago Brii, you made it. The concept of having a future still scares me, and to be honest, things aren’t ‘better’, but there might just be a light out there, and I’m going to stick around a little longer to find it.